Tuesday, August 05, 2008
i am trying
keep trying
i must keep trying...
tom stop being so slacking
surrounded in all the problems and troubles...
what should i do...
which way should i go...
everyone already want people to understand them
but they never make a effort to understand others first
i think i might happen to be just one of them
its really abt funny
i am really tiring right now ...
after all the bombburst with all the exams and reports...
now still got final year report to do...
damn ... i just want to have a rest
and do things right...
why am i always mass up everything
i am just sick of it...
sometimes i questioned myself
i want to find the answer
why... i feel so headache
there are so many problems that comes in and out everyday
no matter how ...
i must try to solve them
so how i find myself really useless
when some problem i try to solve yet
it never comes out the same way as what i think of
why i always comparing myself with others...
comparing the feeling is so sick
but yet it will motivate u
i dunno
i am just so blur
sometimes i just feel like sitting down
lying down some where
and release all my stress..
i am a bit sick of it ..
i really wnat some kind of rest...
but i guess its like too late...
becoz problem will keep coming out
the only thing we can do is to keep solving
thats the reality of the life..
so in order for me to stay happy
i must accept what i have and just try my best
to do what everyone wants
full of LOVE at
10:51 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
i just finish a big fight with dear...
i am sorry...
i am really sorry...
i am not wealthless and inconsiderate...i am just rubbish...
i am sorry...
i will still be there for u sorry ...
full of LOVE at
11:05 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
i start to wondering what is the most important thing in our life,
isnt love the most important thing in our life.
everyone seems to be blindfolded ,
they cant see the lvoe around them, they cant feel the love around them ,
thats why our world needs more love,
things to change,
everyone start to change,
now a days everythings must be branded,
it really makes me feel so sick of it ,
i somehow start to thinks that
those fucking up people who create those brand like LV,
makes me feel they are rubbish,
why they want to create such things to make people have status,
then after that which leads to people compare to each other,
it really stupid,
cant people just accept what they are,
there is nothing wrong to accept what they are,
its also nothing wrong to accept waht they are,
i think its really good to accept yourself,
becoz that is the first step ,
if we want other people to love us, we need to love ourselves first,
we need to love ourselves by accept who we are,
god create us for a reason,
not for us to find a reason to compare with each,
if thats the way what god created us for ,
i think thats really no point,
this wrold change so much,
love is nolonger the first place ,
becoz we dun find that love is around us ,
when we dun find that love is around us , we start to looks for other things to make us feel the love,
i dunno ,
i dunno am i right or wrong.
but i dun want to see peopel keep digging around the same hole,
acceptance is the things which lead to happiness,
sometimes, we dun accept the truth ,
thats understandable ,
everyone dun want to face the reality,
everyone want everything to go out to be such smooth and nice,
i use to think this way as well,
but now i really understand,
i have so many love around me,
i have love from my family, even though they seems not around me,
but i know they are always around me,
i habe the love from my girlfriend, when ever i need help and support,
she is the first one who will give me strength to face the problem and overcome the problems ,
i have the love from my freind, when something went wrong with me, they will said straigh to me, they will point out my mistake they will tell me what have i done to make things wrong
there is so many things around us ,
i guess .... truthful is really improtant ,
not everone can be truthful always,
but the truthful we are,
the better we are in our life,
i will treasure very thing in my life right now ,
i dun want to lose anything and anyone,
i wish everyone will stays happy and cheerful,
i know there is up and down in our life ,
in the times of happy , i will be stand there and be happy with u,
in the times of sadness, i will be the first who give u strength to overcome the problems ,
i wnat to be someone who can not only brings joy but overcome the sadness,
thats what i want to tell myself and warn myself.
full of LOVE at
12:54 AM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
limit is break
i have enough ...
why must this happen....
anyone can tell me what to do
its really hard...
its really hurts...
i can understand everything
just normal go out or watever thing
i can take it ....
but must those words be seen..
certain words...
why must it be inside
why ...
i dun understand ...
i just want to have a small place for me to hide..
now this place..
someone is trying to take it away from me ...
where can i run to ...
where can i go to...
i really dunno ...
i want to stay inside my place...
i dun want anyone to come ..
i dun want..
i dunno what can i do ..
i really cannot take it ...
why it become so confused...
why in the world this is happening to me...
i really dunno..
i am sick of it..
i only know ...
i have enough....
full of LOVE at
10:56 PM
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
today is a new year...
and at the very first day of the new year...
i think is a very bad start...
i make u angry...
really sorry about it....
i am really sorry...
there is so many times ...
i always think that i do it the right way...
in fact...
i do it the worst way ...
in this years...
i have bluff myself so much ...
i am trying all the ways just to tell myself that
i am doing ok ...
but the truth is i did very badly in everything...
i guess...
now i am really feel very down ...
in every part of my life...
but i just have to make some changes out of it...
i have to work harder in everything ...
althought i know i try ... but i guess...
thats not enough ....
i cant just stand at the same spot and keep blaming myself ...
the things wont have any changes ...
i have to do something...
i have to work harder...
i just have to carry on..
full of LOVE at
5:20 PM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
its really tiring ...
with all the shit food...which i eaten for 3 days...
still got some more to come...
nvm...
i will encourage myself to overcome this...
...
haiz.. just all the scoldings from here and there...
it really affected me...
with those kind of stupid remark from
the stupid captain ...
haiz..
nvm ...
i guess...
now i have no right to say anything ..
watever i done will always be wrong...
nvm...
wat i need is determination to over come this ...
i just need to have a little bit of faith
to support me...
to carry me up..
all the stress...
put aside first...
helping hand...
i guess there is none...
i just have to have faith ...
to overcome it...
The sky will not be dark forever...
i will wait till the sunshine come...e
full of LOVE at
12:08 AM
Saturday, November 24, 2007
i am 21 years old le...
finally ...
i guess ...
now watever thing doesnt matter to anyone already ....
its just the matter of me and myself...
the hardwork will nv be recognised....
i guess...
maybe i am just too foolish ...
from this moment onwords...
i have enough of this ...
its going to closed ....
i am not going to tok anymore abt it...
i just want to stop it...
no more...
no more...
just let me breathe some fresh air...
i am dying from this
...
its enough ....
jsut let me be in this world...
i know ...
i just want to be in the heaven ...
i guess ...
smiles will take over the sadness...
i have enough....
full of LOVE at
10:42 PM