Friday, April 21, 2006
i think and think ...
read over and over again,..
at the end...
i dun understand...
haiz...this is such a common thing
in my life...
nowonder
all the lit test i forever do very lousy one
hahaz...
yea its the fact...
i admit it myself le...
hahz... i am not good at that...
and i will nv be able to
good at that...
coz i am not that type ...
i guess....
i belong to the strange type ...
haahz...
and i am just less than 1% ...
hahaz... yea...
its very true to me....
i guess.. i got to learn more ba...
nvm... i know...
no matter how i learn ...
there's still no change...
haahz...
its so ironic .. that...
i can remember nearly everything i study...
and amazingly ..
yea i forget the thing i promise...
maybe ...its just damn suck up ba ...
hahaz... i wonder...
wat is the point of doing well in studies...
and forget the very basic...
i guess...
nvm...
nvm...
nvm...
full of LOVE at
11:40 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
this is life...
the life of me
yes...i know...
i am weak...
yea come on ...
i lose to the reality ...
yes..i am done...
i know...
i defeat by u ..
now when i am writing..
yea...
i really dunno ... how i feel now...
happy or sad...
or wat other things can say ...
i hrut my love ...so much...
i give her so much pressure...
i really very very sad...
i dunno ...
i am blur...
my life seems meaningless without her...
how am i going to live without her...
becoz of her...
my life has goal...
i work for the goal ...
the goal ...
is to bring happiness for her...
but i finally realised...
the happiness that every boyfriend
can give,,,
is not something that i can give...
becoz...
i am not even better than a normal boyfriend...
the happiness i can give is all i have..
maybe not even 1% of
the normal boyfriend...
yea iknow ...
i admit...
its me...
i can change the past...
but the future is in my hand..
a bright or a dull future ..
is all in my hand...
my pressure ..
i can just use my pressure as an excuse le...
its not an excuse...
i know ...no matter wat..
or under any pressure ...
i will just move on ...
becoz ...
i dun want to go back to the past again ...
past wil always there to remind me...
that i am once ...
so.........
yea...
now its time to change...
to really just be the truth self..
to behave happily ...
yes...
just like wat i say ...
happy is depend on us...
yea ... dun ever give up...
dear...
my love will never chnage ..
my feeling for u .. is still same as the day ...
when we first start...
u are my only love...
take good care...
full of LOVE at
10:57 PM
wa...
i guess ... now God is really testing
me and my dear...
life now are quite ok ...
but sometimes...
problems will just pup up from nowhere ...
however ...
i am really trying very hard
i want this relationship to carry on
i want my dear to be my wife...
i want to have a happy life with my dear...
i want a lot things ...
God want us to feel how tough in the life
a relationship ...
must went through many things
at the end ...
after so many things...
then will finally get together...
things... which can get easily ...
usually wont last for very long
it goes the same to the relationship...
we must went through a lot of '
difficulties...
then we will grow together and learn
and accept from each otehr...
when we are down wat can we do ...
for me .. i always know one thing...
no matter up or down ...
dear is always there for me ...
her heart will not change ...
becoz of the faith ...
i know ...we will not so easily defeat..
i know i am a super stupid sotong kuku..
that dun understand a single things ...
abt the relationship ..
i know that i am not a good boyfriend too..
i admit everything...
but wat could i do..
i just hope that we will be able to
run finish the race toegther,...
we will be able to get till the end
dear... i just want u to kmow that...
lets jia you ..
i will be there for u ...
no matter wats going on ..
full of LOVE at
2:46 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
it seems the same ...
hahaz...
yea i got to admit ...
i am jealous ...
but hahaz... after all ...
hahaz... i guess..
i am the one who jealous
the most foolish kuku ba...
hhaaz... when i can be happy
i dun want to be ..
i choose to jealous and make
myself unhappy ...
wat a retard... hahaz
after all ...
hahaz... as long as trust
each other ...
problems will be solved
easily
haha.z..
now life is going to be
hard... hahaz
i know y ...
hahaz.. but hard is ok ...
for u ... i will work hard....
for ur happiness..
no matter how tough ...
i swear...
i wont say a single word...
i will be there for u .....
no matter wat...
i believe ...
as long as we love each other ..
nothing going to break us apart...
God will guide us through it ...
dear...
i am sorry that i make u feel so bad....
i am ur boyfriend..
and yet ...
i didnt do the things that
a boyfriend should do....
everyone has pressure ..
dear ... hope i didnt give u too much
pressure...
u know ...
i am not so good at
all these...
just hope u understand
dear .. we had come so far le..
lets just carry on ..
and finish the race together ok ?
i wont let u run the race alone one
love u
full of LOVE at
9:43 PM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
camps ... over liao ..
have lots of fun there...
aiyo ..this few days ... dunno y ...
haiz... hahaz... feel so kuku lor..
hahaz...
nvm i must have confidence for myself...
yeahahaz......
if not how am i going to take care of my dear..
yea...
she is right,...
hahaz...
life is like that dun always go to the way we want it to be..
lucky last blog ...
i got tell myself that...
and it really help me ..
when i feel super damn dunno wat ... just now
hahaz.. but anyway now is ok le..
hahaz... i now got energy again ...
(=
i must be happy again (= hahaz...
and i will be ... hahaz...
dear thanks ...when i am down that time..
lucky u are with me..
i wont feel that way anymore le ...
i will trust myself more ...
thanks...
I LOVE U <3nothing gonna to change my love for u ...love u always ....
wahahaz...
ur extremely kuku darling !!!
<3
full of LOVE at
11:06 PM
camps ... over liao ..
have lots of fun there...
aiyo ..this few days ... dunno y ...
haiz... hahaz... feel so kuku lor..
hahaz...
nvm i must have confidence for myself...
yeahahaz......
if not how am i going to take care of my dear..
yea...
she is right,...
hahaz...
life is like that dun always go to the way we want it to be..
lucky last blog ...
i got tell myself that...
and it really help me ..
when i feel super damn dunno wat ... just now
hahaz.. but anyway now is ok le..
hahaz... i now got energy again ...
(=
i must be happy again (= hahaz...
and i will be ... hahaz...
dear thanks ...when i am down that time..
lucky u are with me..
i wont feel that way anymore le ...
i will trust myself more ...
thanks...
full of LOVE at
11:06 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
life is like that...
always dont follow our plan...
if we learn to accept ...
we are one step nearer to the happiness...
hahaz... always ...
when we are the one ...
we will nv tot of learning accept ...
it goes the same for everyone...
only those outsiders will be able to see
actually when we accept the fact..
we wil be happier ...
life is sucks for some people..
but if life always goes the way that we want it to be...
then it will turns bored...
then the purpose of ur life...
will be so systematic...
coz everything is under our control...
hahaz...
i know everyone likes to be the one..
who is on the control...
but wat if...
one day ...
u lose the control..
it will nv be back...
so the best way is not to take over the control..
is let the control take over u ...
nvm .. lol.. i dunno how to explain in eng ..
lol...too bad cant type chinese...ghahaz...
nvm...
yea..life is always like that...
actually everyday ... wont be a happy day ...
if u nv learn the key of happines...
the key of happiness...
is to learn to accept the fact...
dun blame the fact...
the fact ..means ... it will nv change...
so wat we can do is to accept ...
for me .. now is nearly 20 liao...
i think i am getting old liao..
but getting old ... i not really mind..
becoz as i grow .. i learn a lot...
as times goese by ..
i learn how to accept the fact..
there is so many things out there ...
which is unfair for us...
if we just keep being unhappy ...
nothing going to happen..
happiness wont come just like wind...
come and go..
if u learn how to accept .. life can change..
if we are happy...
althought things dun goes the way we want it to be..
but...we accept it...
one day ...there will be a day..
when the things... goes the way u want it to be..
that kind of joy ..
is beyond discription ...
yea...
life is such a wonderful story ...
we are the author...
we can make it like a happy story ..
aslo can make it like a sad story ...
its all on our hands...
u are the one who have the choice...
u can make a choice...
wahahaz...tom .. u better understand all these...
next time when something
make u damn pissed off..or
when makes u sad...
come and read this entry ...
tom ...
and lastly ...dear cheer up ...
i love u always ....
<3
full of LOVE at
11:04 PM