Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ar... i finally realise ...
wat kind of people am i ?
haiz...
yea its quite suck ...
when i am not able to do those stuff...
but yet .. i am trying to act like i am able to do...
actually i am the one ..
who should really reflect on
all these problems..
yea ...
thinking of it ...
yea,,,
i totally agree with all these..
after watever craps...
i am just a normal human ...
i am not the one who are able to handle so many stuff
i got to agree...
yea ... its pressuring ...
but this world is full of pressuring ...
if i cant take it..
the world will over take it...
the reality is always curel ..
yea i think hahaz... i am really not good enough to handle
all the problems...
hahaz... i got to agree,,,
now reality is slowing taking oever me..
i feel like a failure ..yea...
i got to agree... i am really a FAILURE...
dun tok abt all the acadamic stuff...
in terms of life...
i am a failure already...
yea... simple stuff...
yet i dun have the repsonsibility ....
wat the helll...
in terms of studies...
i am not good either...
yea ... now all the studies .. are killing me..
so wat that i got 4 D for my Os...
its nothing big deal....
and now .. with all the lousy grades...
imagine ... that when teacher saw ur class position..
and they will be immediately know the no. of people ..
in the class...
its so ironic and yet...
we cant do ath ...
yea .. it just make me feel the same when i just came to singapore...
yea ....my results were worst ...
haiz... but yet i overcome it...
but now .. i dunno ...
yea i really dunno...
theere is so many stuffs...
omg .. how i wish ..
i can just dun care abt all the problems..
i can just be myself...
be the one that i want to be...
yea so many things going on..
yet .. i am still standing at the same place... didnt move at all...
wat a retard right...
yea i guess so ...
why do i always add more stones on my shoulders...
why .. why .. why ...
just becoz i am the ordest in the family ..
damn it is nothing big deal of being the eldest..
yea ...
hahaz..
but at the end ...
all the main reason that cause this problem ...
is me...
yea ,,, me and myself...
i cant blame others..
becoz ... i am the one who make all these happen ...
the life was just so many stuffs going on ...
and i got to find somewhere out of these trap ..
hahaz...
i really wish....
everything will be alright ..
while thinking abt all these stuff...
my heart start to crying out loud...
and i know ...,.
yea ...
i am just ... a failure ...
of everything ...
at this moment ..
i just want to shout out ...
how could this happen to me
the nightmare is in control once again
full of LOVE at
11:21 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
ar...
lol
this is my third time typing this entry liao ...
hope it better works ...
if not ar... my finger dying liao lor
hahaz...
yea i am so long nv come and type le ...
then when i want to type the computer see me not happy liao
)=
hahaa
but never recently
haahaz... i am still having a wonderful life
hahaz...
yea just celebrate with dear our one year...
hahaz
1 year leh !!!!
hahaz.. i am so happy lor
hahaz and there is more to come
hahaz... yea lor ...
we eat at fosters hahaz
the food is really wonderful
cant describe how it taste...
but is just too nice liao
hahaz... but also quite costly around $90 for us ...
hahaz.. but i think is super worth it lor...
the environment is so nice ... and the food too ...
plus my dear around there...
lol ... how i wish i can stay at that moment forever ..
hahaz...
yea ... and dear wear till so BEAUTIFUL
hahaz...
I LOVE U !!!
hahaz...
yea have a great time there
hahaz....(=
hahaz... i just find that...
haahz.. actually love someone ...
is so hard to say how much u love her...
becoz... u really love her everything...
even just a simple small move or action ...
will make u day become so wonderful..
hahaz... and my dear bring sunshine to my life ...
lol... hahz...
how should i thank God that sending such a wodnerful angel to me ..
looking after me ..
hahaz... (=
hahaz... feel so xing fu lor ... hahaz
yea dear... i think this year ...
i really brings u a lot of trouble ...
and everytime u forgive me .,..
just want to let u know
thanks for holding on so hard...
i love u ......
dear... exam coming le...
jia you ok ...
u can do it de... i believe u
take good care too ok ? lovg u forever
full of LOVE at
11:07 PM