Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ar... i finally realise ...
wat kind of people am i ?
haiz...
yea its quite suck ...
when i am not able to do those stuff...
but yet .. i am trying to act like i am able to do...
actually i am the one ..
who should really reflect on
all these problems..
yea ...
thinking of it ...
yea,,,
i totally agree with all these..
after watever craps...
i am just a normal human ...
i am not the one who are able to handle so many stuff
i got to agree...
yea ... its pressuring ...
but this world is full of pressuring ...
if i cant take it..
the world will over take it...
the reality is always curel ..
yea i think hahaz... i am really not good enough to handle
all the problems...
hahaz... i got to agree,,,
now reality is slowing taking oever me..
i feel like a failure ..yea...
i got to agree... i am really a FAILURE...
dun tok abt all the acadamic stuff...
in terms of life...
i am a failure already...
yea... simple stuff...
yet i dun have the repsonsibility ....
wat the helll...
in terms of studies...
i am not good either...
yea ... now all the studies .. are killing me..
so wat that i got 4 D for my Os...
its nothing big deal....
and now .. with all the lousy grades...
imagine ... that when teacher saw ur class position..
and they will be immediately know the no. of people ..
in the class...
its so ironic and yet...
we cant do ath ...
yea .. it just make me feel the same when i just came to singapore...
yea ....my results were worst ...
haiz... but yet i overcome it...
but now .. i dunno ...
yea i really dunno...
theere is so many stuffs...
omg .. how i wish ..
i can just dun care abt all the problems..
i can just be myself...
be the one that i want to be...
yea so many things going on..
yet .. i am still standing at the same place... didnt move at all...
wat a retard right...
yea i guess so ...
why do i always add more stones on my shoulders...
why .. why .. why ...
just becoz i am the ordest in the family ..
damn it is nothing big deal of being the eldest..
yea ...
hahaz..
but at the end ...
all the main reason that cause this problem ...
is me...
yea ,,, me and myself...
i cant blame others..
becoz ... i am the one who make all these happen ...
the life was just so many stuffs going on ...
and i got to find somewhere out of these trap ..
hahaz...
i really wish....
everything will be alright ..
while thinking abt all these stuff...
my heart start to crying out loud...
and i know ...,.
yea ...
i am just ... a failure ...
of everything ...
at this moment ..
i just want to shout out ...
how could this happen to me
the nightmare is in control once again
full of LOVE at
11:21 PM