Tuesday, September 26, 2006
when i looking back to the past...
the smiles... the laughters...
that really makes my tears fall down like nobody's business...
and right now ...
i am in the darkness...
today ...
the sun looks bright ...
yet in my heart...
i know ...
i just suck......
full of LOVE at
7:19 PM
haiz...
come back from work...
yea.. i am so tired...
but the tiredness seems nothing compare to yesterday
guess now ...
i am in the total darkness...
and i hate it ..
haiz... i am the one who cause all these to happen...
dear i am really sorry.....
full of LOVE at
7:14 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
hahaz...guess wat...
now i am one person ...
in front of the laptop...
cant do ath....feel so hopeless and useless...
and laughing at myself ...
i can even feel the whole world's laugher ...
yea they all shouting ...
tom u are suck at everything ...
yea...hahaz...a got to say i accept it...
hahaz...
wat can i do ...
when i am feeling so hopeless
and the tears just fall down like nobody's business
i still must pretent i am happy if not parents going to worry again
its all thanks to myself of being so useless...
nvm its wat i get ....
suck means suck...
there is no way u can change...
yea...i guess...
this is really wat i am good at ba being suck.........
full of LOVE at
11:10 PM
guess wat...
i mess up everything le...
all the plans ...
yea...
i really mess them all le...
its all my fault ...sorry guys...
i am sorry... the party no more le..
hope u guys no ... maybe ..
if i wasnt there ... maybe she will celebrate with
u guys ba...
maybe be... yea there is no point for me
being there to mess up the party ..
yea...sorry guys...
wat a useless guy i am...
a gf bday party...
also being mess up by me ...
sorry...
its my fault ... i am really sorry...
this is wat i earn...
once again ... i got to say sorry to everyone...
sorry...
full of LOVE at
11:06 PM
yes... i am a just a burden
a burden...
yea a burden...
.........
sorry...
i am just a burden
full of LOVE at
10:59 PM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
ar...
just came back from work..
ar... this is my second day no dinner liao
ar... still ok la
can take it
but at least tonight not so tired...
no pain at all...
just leg very tired only...
ar ... i think dear still angry at me ba...
tonight i cant really concentrate on the work...
becoz i am keep thinking abt her
just keep worrying ...
haiz....
hope she will be alright ...
i am so sorry dear....
full of LOVE at
11:44 PM
haiz...
now feel so depress..
no mood to go work ..
haiz...
also no strength...
this raining day ..
just making my mood became worse...
dear... i just wonder wat are u doing right now...
are u ok already ?..
i think u still angry at me ba...
mummy ...
take good care ...
love u
haiz...
when will the rain stop.....
full of LOVE at
5:48 PM
hai...today again i disappointed dear again...
i say will be bring lunch for her de...
at the end i overslpt...
wat the hell...
stupid la...my hp alarm nv work...
guess i need to buy a alarm le..
but thats not the excuse...
then dear today nv eat lunch is all becoz of me..
wa lao ...just feel that i am a bastard...
this week i work for 3 days le ...
is quite tiring ...yea
yesterday actually work till 11 pm only at then end work till 3 am...
damn it ...if i know i cant take the tiredness... then will over slpt
i should tell the bloodly manager....
haiz...
is all too late...
haiz....
and yea along the way back ...
i really tot a lot of stuff...
again i realise ...
i am not as strong as wat i tot...
i tot i could handle many stuff at the time...
at the end i cant..
i do things wrong...
boss scold...
nvm...for the seek of money ... i take it is ok ...
anyway is i wrong at the first place...
i just dunno why ...
haiz...
feel so depress now ..
i know now dear is feel thousand times worst than me..
i have no right to complain over such a small factor...
yea..
again yesterday ..pain again ..
wat dad say is correct...
i should rest more... if not i sure kanna operation de..
ar... i telll myself is ok de...yea .. just 2 months only ..
let me get enough $$ first..
but this is still ok ..
wat i sacred is the feeling ..
yea yesterday pain twice when i serving the customer drinks...
damn it ... the stupid chest pain nearly make me pour
the latte on the customer pants..
damn heng...
but stupid leh ..
i tot it should be gone liao ...
dman it ... this few months the pain is one or two time only ..
y this month havent pass yet got 3 times..
then the stupid elvin ...
keep asking me ok anot ...
wa lao feel like punching him...
but almost faint once ... coz the second pain come too sudden le...
ar...i think going to ask dad tonight again..
dad say need more rest..
i think i got enough rest le ar...
should be alright ..
tonight need to work again .. hope the stupid pain dun come can liao...
ar.. now is not the time to tok this rubbish ..
just i am more worry abt dear...
ar...
shit la,... wat should i do...
this time is my this kuku again ....
ar....
damn it
y always me ar......
full of LOVE at
4:04 PM