Saturday, September 16, 2006
hai...today again i disappointed dear again...
i say will be bring lunch for her de...
at the end i overslpt...
wat the hell...
stupid la...my hp alarm nv work...
guess i need to buy a alarm le..
but thats not the excuse...
then dear today nv eat lunch is all becoz of me..
wa lao ...just feel that i am a bastard...
this week i work for 3 days le ...
is quite tiring ...yea
yesterday actually work till 11 pm only at then end work till 3 am...
damn it ...if i know i cant take the tiredness... then will over slpt
i should tell the bloodly manager....
haiz...
is all too late...
haiz....
and yea along the way back ...
i really tot a lot of stuff...
again i realise ...
i am not as strong as wat i tot...
i tot i could handle many stuff at the time...
at the end i cant..
i do things wrong...
boss scold...
nvm...for the seek of money ... i take it is ok ...
anyway is i wrong at the first place...
i just dunno why ...
haiz...
feel so depress now ..
i know now dear is feel thousand times worst than me..
i have no right to complain over such a small factor...
yea..
again yesterday ..pain again ..
wat dad say is correct...
i should rest more... if not i sure kanna operation de..
ar... i telll myself is ok de...yea .. just 2 months only ..
let me get enough $$ first..
but this is still ok ..
wat i sacred is the feeling ..
yea yesterday pain twice when i serving the customer drinks...
damn it ... the stupid chest pain nearly make me pour
the latte on the customer pants..
damn heng...
but stupid leh ..
i tot it should be gone liao ...
dman it ... this few months the pain is one or two time only ..
y this month havent pass yet got 3 times..
then the stupid elvin ...
keep asking me ok anot ...
wa lao feel like punching him...
but almost faint once ... coz the second pain come too sudden le...
ar...i think going to ask dad tonight again..
dad say need more rest..
i think i got enough rest le ar...
should be alright ..
tonight need to work again .. hope the stupid pain dun come can liao...
ar.. now is not the time to tok this rubbish ..
just i am more worry abt dear...
ar...
shit la,... wat should i do...
this time is my this kuku again ....
ar....
damn it
y always me ar......
full of LOVE at
4:04 PM