Friday, February 23, 2007
i am confused...
wat should i do ??
i have no idea... i am blur ... i am lose ..
i really dunno wat to do ...
can anyone tell me ...
God...
why when i ask u this question ...
u didnt give me a reply ...
i really dunno wat to do ...
i want a change ..
i want to make a difference ....
i want to be excellent....
but can i really be ?
now is changing ...
i have no idea...wat is going on ....
wat should i do ....
so i can that someone ....
how should i do so i will not waste anymore...
wat can i do ...
i dunno .....
somehow i feel so peaceful in my heart and mind...
but when i think abt it ...
i want to know the ways for me to change ...
not just a single moment ...
i want a change ....
a change in me ...
wat do i need to do ...
its so dots...
i cant find any confidence for myself ...
i hated it ...
when i realised that its so hard for me to even accept myself now ...
i dun like this ...
i dun want to be like this ....
why ...
why must this happen to be ...
is it the path that i must go through in my life...
is this the kind of path that i must have ....
and yet...
i cant do ath ...
i dun even have a chance to say no to it...
i cant reject it ....
only thing i can do is to accept it and face it ...
i cant run away ...
somehow i just want to find a corner and hide there for while
and wat should i do ..
every bad thing happen so ironically at the same time...
grandpa got tumor ...
and is not normal one... is a 7.8cm one...
when i heard it...
i am stun...
he treat me very good since i am young even till now...
although i didnt get to see him that often ...
but i still know him a lot ...
omg... lol...
God ... i guess this is that kind of path that i must go through ...
so i will grow up even more ba...
everyone has there on problem...
there is nobody in the world without any single problem
i guess i shouldnt just sit down here and complaining all my problems ba...
instead i have to make a differences...
i will treasure every chances that i have ...
happiness...
although i dun really know how to get it...or even give it ....
i will try ...
again in the silent night ... when only the moon and the star above me...
i am thinking abt u dear.....
i miss u ...
loves
full of LOVE at
10:51 PM