Monday, July 30, 2007
studying studying and studying
although i dun really have the mood to study
but i guess..
i still have to...
there is no choice isn't it ...
haiz...
surprisingly
i got top in the practical exam...
thats really surprise me ...
coz i tot .. i am going to fail like shit...
anyway...
exam coming
so many projects still on the way ...
i guess....
i still have to hang on...
although really feel like breaking down ...
but i guess...
i couldnt ...
wat i have to do now ...
is to learn to reflect...
to understand ...
to study
and wait for the right day...
i guess thats wat i need to do ba
full of LOVE at
10:53 PM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
我好想要有一個人陪我講講話
我真的好孤獨
現在的我腦海裡
想的都是你
可是想的到
卻摸不到
我只希望有一個人可以陪陪我
我感到害怕和寂寞
有人知道嗎
我好想有人關心我
就算是一點也好
最近的我
我也不知道為什麼
我總覺得自己只有一個人
沒有人陪
我不知道
有好多好多的話想說
但是沒有人會聽我說
好孤單
好寂寞
好孤獨
眼淚不停的留下
又有誰會知道
幸福的碎片
我好想撿
可是卻撿不回
full of LOVE at
10:53 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
so many things in my mind now...
i guess...
wat is use to be ...
now it isnt ...
yea....
i guess...
full of LOVE at
7:34 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
so now...
wat is going on ...
recently ...
ur mood really change very fast...
sometimes u can just like normally play around with me ...
sometimes... u will just scold me like nobody's business...
am i something wrong...
why is this must happen to me...
when u do ath to me..
i am always ok with it...
but just when i make a fool ...
u have to be so angry abt it...
yes..
its my fault ... i shouldnt do it ...
...
but i dun understand...
maybe .. for me ...
its just a small stuff...
is nothing to be angry abt ..
to u...
its like i am like a bastard..
that cant understand english ..
yes...
i am ...
i am a bastard...
when u treat ur other friend...
u treat them so good...
with respect ...
with so many stuff...
when u treated me ..
i am like need to just pray to the god..
that u are going to treat me good today...
when u just feel not happy ..
ur face will just turn blur immediately ..
when ur friend do ...anything everything...
they are always correct...
u are always ok with it...
me...
watever i do ..
it seems to be wrong...
wat should i do ...
wat to do...
when everything i do is wrong....
can someone just tell me...
now i cant even meet u so often ...
yet when everytime we meet...
we just going to end up to be ...
keep quiet ...
and angers all around the place...
why must it be this way ...
why is it must be like this ...
i dunno...
i just feel like i am a bastard ..
that doesnet understand ath ...
everyone want poeple to care abt them ..
i dunno ..
sometimes...
i am really even wrost than a stranger ..
i guess...
am i really that bad...
yes...
i am a bastard who dunno ath ...
fuck everyone says that...
i got so damn enough of it ...
i am damn tired...
fuck ...
u all just know how to keep on scold me...
damn it ...
then why am i exist in this damn fucking world ...
whatever i do is wrong ...
fine...
watever i do is rubbish ...
fine..
watever i say is nonsense...
fine...
why in this damn fucking world ...
why am i here...
everyone just pissed off with me...
what i want ..
yes..
i just want to have a little bit of attention from u ...
yes..
i am like an asshole...
just everything that i do ,..
its always wrong...
i dunno ...
what the fuck am i doing in this world man...
damn it...
when u all angry ...
just show all ur angry on me..
why ...
am i something wrong ..
damn it ...
fuck ...
the punches on the wall..
with the blood flows....
damn fuck ....
i cant feel the pain ...
my heart is bleeding like shit ...
does anyone know that...
dman it ...
i just want a little bit of place...
for me to breath..
for me to relax...
why must everyone take it aways from me ....
why
why ...
why ............
full of LOVE at
10:58 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
i guess..
i still couldnt adapt to the changing...
i just feel like that
everyone just want to show me the face...
the face that...
scream at me and shout at me...
that i do everything wrong...
why must it always be me...
sometimes ...
i just couldnt understand ...
yea...
maybe i am stupid or wat...
everyone always wants other people to think for them...
but in fact ...
they are likely to think for the others to ...
i guess that happen to me too...
i just dunno...
it is really hard to do...
scrifice ....
this word ...
i always tot that...
this word is so important in our life..
we scrifice ourselves for others...
i guess... this would not apply for all the people....
sometimes ...
sacrifice might be just nothing ...
i guess.....
therefore for those who ...
keep sacrifice....
i guess...
we all are not looking for any pay back or watever...
but wat we want might be just a little bit
of recognition
wat we want just some attention ...
i dunno...
i am blur ...
maybe i am retarded or watever...
but it seems that...
i just want someone to give me a hand...
our mood are always up an downs...
it can be affected by many things...
but sometimes it just change so frequently ..
i guess... a common conculsion for girls will always said that...
guys dun understand us...
they dunno wat we want...
yeah ...
personally ...
i will agree with that...
coz i am that kind of guy ...
i dunno ath ...
i know nothing...
but i really trying to know...
hoever,
when u all asking this question ...
do u all think that ...
u all really understand ...
wat we want...
all the guys are not just want to have sex or wat in their mind ....
there are so many others stuff ...
except for those sicko they are thinking abt that all the time..
for those can go and die ...
wat i am toking abt is those who are more normal...
when u all are just give so much common abt guys...
actually ....
in fact...
u might not understand them and therefore u have a wrong conclusion ...
and
i realise...that
love equal to sacrifice...this might work in the past...
but nowadays...
scrifice is nothing i guess...
it will not be reconignise or wat...
but i guess..
for those who had done before..
we will still carry on ...
becoz ...
like wat we always believe.,...
We CARe ....
therefore we sacrifice
full of LOVE at
11:34 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
a lot of things happen around me recently ...
i feel so different ...
i feel that the world around me change a lot
things doesnt go the same way...
i guess...
this is life...
life is always changeing ...
it will nv stop changing ...
just like people always change...
sometimes....
i really dunno....
at one moment ...
we are so happy ...
just within a second ...
everything change...
from heaven become hell...
this few days...
my emotion really have a lot of ups and downs...
plus all the projects and studies...
and the sickness...
i dunno ...
i feel i want to break down so many times...
i feel i am so hopeless and helpless...
i just wish there is someone can guide me...
just give me a little bit of faith ...
i just want to know...
wat i believe ...
is it possible ....
i just want to know...
wat i believe ...
would it be a reality anoot ...
i guess... this is really a turning point for me...
things change around ...
there are always things changing ...
emotionally ... physically ...
deeply in my heart...
i just want to find out ...
find back my faith...
i have to agree...
i am not strong ...
becoz i have a tot of giving up ...
everything ...
but i didnt ...
becoz i still believe wat i believe...
i dunno ....
sometimes...
in the past...
it seems normal
but now...
it seems abnormal ...
this is change ..
wat i have to do...
is to adapt to it ...
i have no rights...
to force everything to stay the same...
i guess... this is wat our life all about ...
really ...
if someone ask me do i care abt it ...
yes i do i do care about a lot of stuff...
i dunno...
maybe i am just too stupid ba...
when i just behave like past...
it seems... i am a stranger...
i dunno ...
just have this question keep pop up from my minds...
do i really change ...
or i have not adapt to the change...
i dunno...
just feel so helpless...
a single hug ... a single kiss... a single warm hand ...
it seems so hard...
i dunno maybe i ask for too much ...
i dunno...
i really ...
just want someone to know wat i am thinking abt...
when i thinking about all these alone...
i am so tired...
smiles can cover sadness.... but it will nv cover fear...
there is only happiness can overcome fear...
我真的好希望
有人在我最需要擁抱的時候
可以給我一個擁抱
我只想要一個呵護
可是在現實生活中
對我來說距離好遠好遠
full of LOVE at
11:00 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Everything just hits me like wave...
one after one ...
and it nv stop...
wat should i do...
wat should i do...
can anyone just tell me
and enlighten me plz...
now i feel so sick ...
yea i am sick...
damn it...
such a stupid life like this...
omg...
every words every face...
hurting me like crazy...
i guess...
i am the one who hurts u first..
yea ..
i know how painful it is...
now i am so damn sad...
i feel like breaking down...
damn it...
how i wish i could just die liao that...
i am sick of all these...
wat i want just a
simple life...
damn it damn it damn it...
why everything must happen on me like this...
i am not a superman ...
i dun want all these craps...
all i want just a place...
a place...
i will feel love...
there is love around me...
weather change so fast...
just like our mood...
change as fast...
i experience the highest and the lowest ...
now i just want to have a place for me to rest...
damn it...
why am i like that...
can somebody tell me...
why must i keep everything inside and
i cant say it out loud
tom fuck u man ...
just shout everything out...
damn it ...
fuck...
damn it;..
i am damn sick of all these...
my fucking character...
damn it ...
fuck up sia...
i got really tired of these...
just feel like dying ...
die
die and
die.........................
full of LOVE at
7:46 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Create your own Friend Test here
full of LOVE at
5:00 PM
here i am again...
just keep thinking and wondering ...
while i am walking along the road to my house...
i guess...
i really changed....
wat should i do...
wat can i do...
so many things happening...
so many questions that i need to answer...
so many stuffs... that just all come together in my mind...
i feel so confused...
i am so blur...
i am so... so... so... lost.....
i dunno wat i am thinking...
i dunno wat to do...
i dun even know wat's going to happen tml ...
just like a lifeless creep ...
went through everyday...
i want a change...
at least a simple change ...
that will make all of us feel happier...
i know ... sacrifice... will not always be the way....
i know i am not that good anyway...
i guess....i really KNOCK OUT...
3 2 1 ....
U LOSE!!!!
Yeah...
now wat i want wat i hope is not a big issue...
i guess...
wat's important is ...
i have to understand
wat's going on in my life...
i just simply wanted a reason for me to live...
for me to be
Exist.. in the world...
現在的生活已經不像我以前想的一樣
所有的東西都變的很複雜
我想要的只是一個簡簡單單的生活
我只想要在你的心中留一個角落給我
哪怕事最容易被忽略的角落
你是我最後最美最愛的人 .......
full of LOVE at
12:20 AM
Monday, July 02, 2007
i wonder if my exist is still important ...
omg... feel so depress right now...
i also dunno y just feel this way ...
i think the world around me were change...
or maybe i should say that ...
i am the one who changed...
i am stuck in the trap...
i want to get up ..
i want to escape...
but i couldnt do ath abt it ...
i feel so hopeless...
just something for me to grab on ...
plz... just let me escape...
i am so tried of all this ....
so many question marks...
i have enough of that...
plz... just stop it ....
all the projects ... test... school programme...
everything ...
just
GIVE ME A BREAK....
i am so tired....
haiz...
i guess i am going to stuck like this forever...
just have a little a bit of faith ....
but i wonder....
how much faith
do i still have...
how mich confindence ...
do i still have....
how much everything
do i still have...
i am just too tired of all these...
i want to give up...
but i cannot ...
just becoz ...
i dun want to be a loser...
i just dun want....
god...
i guess wat u say is right...
a lot of people only look for u when they really needs u ...
and when they are not in needs of ath ...
they might just forget abt u...
i guess... i am consider in one of them ba.,..
guess..
this will be the punishment for wat i had done...
i am just too tired...
just want everything to finish ...
just ...
just ,,,
i just ... want ...
the me back.....
full of LOVE at
11:19 PM