Sunday, July 15, 2007
a lot of things happen around me recently ...
i feel so different ...
i feel that the world around me change a lot
things doesnt go the same way...
i guess...
this is life...
life is always changeing ...
it will nv stop changing ...
just like people always change...
sometimes....
i really dunno....
at one moment ...
we are so happy ...
just within a second ...
everything change...
from heaven become hell...
this few days...
my emotion really have a lot of ups and downs...
plus all the projects and studies...
and the sickness...
i dunno ...
i feel i want to break down so many times...
i feel i am so hopeless and helpless...
i just wish there is someone can guide me...
just give me a little bit of faith ...
i just want to know...
wat i believe ...
is it possible ....
i just want to know...
wat i believe ...
would it be a reality anoot ...
i guess... this is really a turning point for me...
things change around ...
there are always things changing ...
emotionally ... physically ...
deeply in my heart...
i just want to find out ...
find back my faith...
i have to agree...
i am not strong ...
becoz i have a tot of giving up ...
everything ...
but i didnt ...
becoz i still believe wat i believe...
i dunno ....
sometimes...
in the past...
it seems normal
but now...
it seems abnormal ...
this is change ..
wat i have to do...
is to adapt to it ...
i have no rights...
to force everything to stay the same...
i guess... this is wat our life all about ...
really ...
if someone ask me do i care abt it ...
yes i do i do care about a lot of stuff...
i dunno...
maybe i am just too stupid ba...
when i just behave like past...
it seems... i am a stranger...
i dunno ...
just have this question keep pop up from my minds...
do i really change ...
or i have not adapt to the change...
i dunno...
just feel so helpless...
a single hug ... a single kiss... a single warm hand ...
it seems so hard...
i dunno maybe i ask for too much ...
i dunno...
i really ...
just want someone to know wat i am thinking abt...
when i thinking about all these alone...
i am so tired...
smiles can cover sadness.... but it will nv cover fear...
there is only happiness can overcome fear...
我真的好希望
有人在我最需要擁抱的時候
可以給我一個擁抱
我只想要一個呵護
可是在現實生活中
對我來說距離好遠好遠
full of LOVE at
11:00 PM