Monday, July 23, 2007
so now...
wat is going on ...
recently ...
ur mood really change very fast...
sometimes u can just like normally play around with me ...
sometimes... u will just scold me like nobody's business...
am i something wrong...
why is this must happen to me...
when u do ath to me..
i am always ok with it...
but just when i make a fool ...
u have to be so angry abt it...
yes..
its my fault ... i shouldnt do it ...
...
but i dun understand...
maybe .. for me ...
its just a small stuff...
is nothing to be angry abt ..
to u...
its like i am like a bastard..
that cant understand english ..
yes...
i am ...
i am a bastard...
when u treat ur other friend...
u treat them so good...
with respect ...
with so many stuff...
when u treated me ..
i am like need to just pray to the god..
that u are going to treat me good today...
when u just feel not happy ..
ur face will just turn blur immediately ..
when ur friend do ...anything everything...
they are always correct...
u are always ok with it...
me...
watever i do ..
it seems to be wrong...
wat should i do ...
wat to do...
when everything i do is wrong....
can someone just tell me...
now i cant even meet u so often ...
yet when everytime we meet...
we just going to end up to be ...
keep quiet ...
and angers all around the place...
why must it be this way ...
why is it must be like this ...
i dunno...
i just feel like i am a bastard ..
that doesnet understand ath ...
everyone want poeple to care abt them ..
i dunno ..
sometimes...
i am really even wrost than a stranger ..
i guess...
am i really that bad...
yes...
i am a bastard who dunno ath ...
fuck everyone says that...
i got so damn enough of it ...
i am damn tired...
fuck ...
u all just know how to keep on scold me...
damn it ...
then why am i exist in this damn fucking world ...
whatever i do is wrong ...
fine...
watever i do is rubbish ...
fine..
watever i say is nonsense...
fine...
why in this damn fucking world ...
why am i here...
everyone just pissed off with me...
what i want ..
yes..
i just want to have a little bit of attention from u ...
yes..
i am like an asshole...
just everything that i do ,..
its always wrong...
i dunno ...
what the fuck am i doing in this world man...
damn it...
when u all angry ...
just show all ur angry on me..
why ...
am i something wrong ..
damn it ...
fuck ...
the punches on the wall..
with the blood flows....
damn fuck ....
i cant feel the pain ...
my heart is bleeding like shit ...
does anyone know that...
dman it ...
i just want a little bit of place...
for me to breath..
for me to relax...
why must everyone take it aways from me ....
why
why ...
why ............
full of LOVE at
10:58 PM