Monday, October 08, 2007
i am so tired...
just a few fingers counts....
everything will be over...
i guess...
i have to accept the news...
i have to accept the result...
i have to be strong...
even if its one man's fight ...
i have... i must...
i will... i need...
everythings... will be in my memory ...
every faces.. every incident...
every encounters...
i am glad that
i am able to said out load...
i have an wonderful life...
at least...
even though its just me alone..
in the path...
i will be strong...
i dun want to be burden to anyone...
its pain...
but sooner ...
i guess... i will feel no more pain...
dunno i will even come and type again ...
but i know... here got all my memories...
its the end...
full of LOVE at
10:49 PM
Monday, October 01, 2007
its been a long time
i nv come here and write
and i also went back to church
...
god ...
sometimes i really wonder wat u say is right or wrong...
u said....
watever i give ...
i will receive...
but for me ...
i didnt receive ath ...
i think i am in such a shame that
i still need to beg...
like a begger...
sometimes...
i just couldnt understand
watever i done seems to be wrong....
wat i want ...
it will nv come true...
wat i done...
it seems like i am the only one in the world ...
that is going nuts...
i really dunno...
i just want someone to be around ...
i just want someone who cares me...
someone who loves me...
it seems so hard to do ...
it seems so hard to get...
i really dunno ...
there are so mcuh pressure....
i just want someone ...
to give me a hand...
someone who pulls me out of these...
it seems like ...
even i want to wake up from this terrible dream...
but i just dun have the energy to wake up...
god...
i really dunno wats going on ...
i know i should have faith in you ...
yes i have faith in you ...
but on the other hand..
i feel so lonely ...
i dunno...
i find that ...
my life now ...
was like no ife...
everyone just keep asking me to do this do that...
but did anyone really ...
really ...
deep from the heart
concern wat have been going through in me...
its really terrible...
i just feel both physically and emotionally tired...
i just want to find somewhere to hide...
i just want to know ...
at least ...
there is a place for me to go to...
god...
i want to go to ur house...
i want to be in ur world...
i just want to be a happy person...
it really hurts like shit...
i just want to be care...
sometimes...
i just wonder am i very selfish ...
thats why nobody cares...
am i very bad...
am i a totally wealthless person ..
am i just not suit to get any concern ...
am i just nothing to anyone
i really dunno...
i want to wake up from this ...
i know i cant go back to the past...
there is also future in hand...
but i really dunno where is my future...
everything is unclear....
does anyone know ...
i am putting on a mask all the time...
i have to be strong in front of
in my family ...
becoz i am the eldest son...
i have to be able to take any pressure a head...
but does anyone know that its really very tired to do so
i just want to be loved
its so hard...
when the songs play
i really hope...
someone will just be there for me....
cry on my shoulder
If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
full of LOVE at
12:05 AM